Now in my 30's I realize I'm gonna have to except the fact that I'm gonna b a basic bitch wanna b photog forever since I never was Able to pay for school or intern full time my 20s flew by working and hustling. Now I'm working at a crazy house starting over again relationship wise so this is difficult but not as difficult as when I hear the story of others. My life sounds like a walk in the park compared to most. Wish I could have continued climbing up towards my goals of working in an artistic line of wrk photographer/creative director/stylist but god has had different plans for me. Honestly though I can say if I died today i would feel accomplished and happy especially for kind of being solo growing up as well as a high school drop out. Life isn't bad at all I have love. Love can come and go but when you have the kind of love I have right now, not much else matters. All I ever wanted was to be loved %100 to the fullest. I waited I even at one point told myself in my previous 14yr relationship that it was ok to not be loved on or made to feel amazing & that I should just be glad to have someone that I LOVED to share life with even though I didn't feel the love back. Still I'm okay and in love now. I say OKAY because these days for anyone to be okay it's as good as great. I have dark days and days in color. Leaving behind certain things scares me still till this day but its a slow process. I wish so many things for others. Back to my photography, I hope to make more amazing images happen. I love it so much nothing has ever made me so sure of who I am. My hope for life is that my past will make peace with my present and nurture my future so that I may thrive w my love and creativity.
