Holiday Morning... orange leave tea,swiss & cream cheese croissants cazzy & me

This christmas... Dream list

this in my size of course #igotdreams

truth

The truth is...

Folks sometimes I don't really know what it is I want. I guess we hold on to our beliefs cuz thats all we have.

Copyright!

So its happend again but it wont be the last time, my work published worldwide without my consent or knowledge. It's worse this time because it was done by someone who at one point I cared for and they pretended to do the same. It's all good though because I have no desire to take this any further but if this ever happens again with this individual I will clock the that shit on overtime. Don't mistake my kindness for ignorance to your fake BULLSHIT.

I think its time

I feel life taking a lil turn in the right direction meaning eating cheap for a few bucks, not buying alot of shit 4 myself unless it costs 50cents. It's carlos's bday in a few weeks and I am determined 2 make it better than last years. Learning it's ok to have lows and they dont need to turn into depression. Since the age of 9 I've been afraid to become over emotional about anything that really matters besides daily bs, basically about the things I cant control in life. Some people tell me I'm to carefree, but what they don't know is that is because after having severe depression at the age of only 9 yrs old and then again at 11 yrs old feeling a deep black hole of nothingness that scares all the hope you have out of you as a child, nothing could ever be that bad and your happy everyday just to have a free mind thats not in it's own prison. So mentally you can say I celebrate everyday without even knowing it. Yes I had no idea what the word depression was, years later I found out even though I had been afraid for years of becoming more aware of menal illness. Even though certain relationships feel as though they have grown into a rusty rod that I have no way of correcting them or turning them into something not ugly, but it's ok they are for a reaon I say. It's easier 2 take what people do on to me rather than endure what I bring upon myself. So my therapys are thrifting, swapmeeting, picking up old delapidated furniture, and most importantly music/taking photos is my biggest relaxation. Today I feel so nice and I have to mention Gem who has inspired me today with good music honestly.

listening to Sufjan Stevens - all delighted people ep

freakcity LA summer street sale

This is the crew u need to meet them

Desire- Mirror Mirror

compton2 post cards from Zazzle.com

Buy my work in post cards!

compton2 post cards from Zazzle.com

Desire - Don't Call

unorganized

these people at RCC here in riverside ca are creatively constipated they have no idea where to start when it come to throwing a succesful art festival, so therefore I had 2 drop out. Oh well thier loss and if you ask me I had some awsome shit to sell but oh well. Anywho, court in west covina was BS today the officer lied infront of my face ! all I have to say is i am glad that trafficing phones in the prison was not in vein ; ) bwahahahahahaha! I hate cops w exception of my cousin cuz he's a nice not a mean ; )

best lil corner in town

Hello lover

had a 4/20 dinner party it was nice honey mustard stuffed chicken! smaccoroni! tuna mushroom pasta! I had a slight relapse and ate on my 30 day cleanse so this week kinda fell through oh well i got 17 more days to go still n I aint gonna stop! I'll see it through. FYI u can get in shape without wearing shapeups! please ladys and fem men please these r a trajic hit to the shoe community dont do it I'd rather see u in a pair of crocks and if u have a little bit of hair dont put it in a pony tail and go out like that! that shit makes me sad.

phoenix u know me

Here I come to see the oldies. Yes, I am taking photos of the oldies (glamour shots) imagen that, I've been feeling really shitty (physically) so I am hoping a little change in pace and diet will help me, I have alays wantd to shoot the seniors but its hard to get thier consent cause they usually want to know why the fuck you want to shoot them. Hopefully I get at least 1 or 2 great shots. I will also visit my boo Brandon. So the next blog will be a photo of an oldie.

peace ; )

p.s.

I'm 27 now and I like the Dave Mathews band

it's as if we never...

finding new buys and treasures @ the thrift store is really what its all about in the middle of a rainy day. I am going to continue to create and sell revamped vintage clothing in 2010. I'm just glad that there is such thing as shopping your way out of the blues. I also had an awsome night with Lea/godess we had hummus then a brief spontanious shoot in my kitchen/living room. She has been a sort of muse if you will for a couple years now, and I thank her.

If she ain't 280 she aint a lady!

Yup this is true for some peeps. Me personally I am so trying to fight the fight when it comes to my weight. It is fukeen hard though, I have made peace with myself, in that I will not ever be thin. Instead I just want to b comfy and fit into the hot ass pieces that I find and create from the thrift store/swapmeet. Coming from 320lbs to 286 than floating inbetween is bs! I guess it's still good being that I had'nt been under 300lbs in 4yrs. oh welly I will prevail. But in memory of Turk a good old friend of mine "If she aint 280, she aint a lady"