Highs and the dumps

I had a great great day x's 25 today but I start thinking about the weight I've lost & my relationship here at home. I'm a Lil sad about the fact that I keep losing weight & yes I've curbed my eating somewhat as far as carbs & what not but I know I'm losing weight mostly cuz I'm sick (diabetes) that takes all the joy away. I don't even know why I'm writing this cuz I'm supposed to turn this in to a .com so it's supposed to just be about my work and not this type of BS but fuk it. #ventvomit I have lots of insecurities regarding my relationship but my fears are really out of my control it's funny it takes the smallest shit to set my dumbass off into a tornado of anxiety & stress. Well you know men ain't trying to hear that kind of naggy annoying shit. As it is they don't want to b botherd with the most minuet topics/tasks/conversations. I'll just say this out of all honesty, as women we need romantic partners not just a BFF. I havnt been feeling myself lately so that may have alot to do with things but regardless being lazy Is not okay (on both ends). I miss being 19 with all drive and energy.