On the real no lie...

Life has kind of become ugly and very scary at this point for me. Hoping for the best is an understatement when all you wanna do is survive and being okay would be a luxury at this point. Never the less I'm good. Ain't nobody dying or homeless (yet). It's very sad when people feel that your suffering or state of panic will be healthy for you and they believe they have the right to impose that on you. Karma is real and god knows where my intentions are at all times tho. I'm moving forward regardless to a positive light and I'm not ashamed of who I am. Even juicy delicious apples have bruises or damage at times. 

 

My magic hour

Now in my 30's I realize I'm gonna have to except the fact that I'm gonna b a basic bitch wanna b photog forever since I never was Able to pay for school or intern full time my 20s flew by working and hustling. Now I'm working at a crazy house starting over again relationship wise so this is difficult but not as difficult as when I hear the story of others. My life sounds like a walk in the park compared to most. Wish I could have continued climbing up towards my goals of working in an artistic line of wrk photographer/creative director/stylist but god has had different plans for me. Honestly though I can say if I died today i would feel accomplished and happy especially for kind of being solo growing up as well as a high school drop out. Life isn't bad at all I have love. Love can come and go but when you have the kind of love I have right now, not much else matters. All I ever wanted was to be loved %100 to the fullest. I waited I even at one point told myself in my previous 14yr relationship that it was ok to not be loved on or made to feel amazing & that I should just be glad to have someone that I LOVED to share life with even though I didn't feel the love back. Still I'm okay and in love now. I say OKAY because these days for anyone to be okay it's as good as great. I have dark days and days in color. Leaving behind certain things scares me still till this day but its a slow process. I wish so many things for others. Back to my photography, I hope to make more amazing images happen. I love it so much nothing has ever made me so sure of who I am. My hope for life is that my past will make peace with my present and nurture my future so that I may thrive w my love and creativity.

SOME OF MY FAVE IMAGES